Experiences shape a person’s personality, behavior, and values throughout their life. In Khaled Hosseini’s touching novel, A Thousand Splendid Suns, Mariam’s past negatively affects her future.
In her early life, Nana made Mariam feel unwanted. Mariam realized from a young age that “she, Mariam, was an illegitimate person who would never have legitimate claim to the things other people had, things such as love, family, home, and acceptance.” Mariam had it in her head that she didn’t deserve love and other things that every person is entitled to. Mariam’s only ray of hope was her father’s visits. With him, her problems faded away. She felt as if she belonged. Once she found out that he too would not accept her, she began to feel worthless. Every person in her life that she trusted had disappointed her or failed her in some way. Her husband Rasheed was no different. Nothing she did would please him. This increased her self-doubt. Was something wrong with her? The constant breaking of Mariam’s heart caused it to barricade itself and be put under lock and key. She realized that “the past only held this wisdom: that love was a damaging mistake and its’ accomplice, hope, a treacherous illusion.” Mariam would not have her heart broken again. She would not set herself up for failure by having hope.
This explains her unfriendly behavior towards Laila upon her arrival into Mariam’s life. She felt Laila was stealing her husband which was perhaps the only thing Mariam felt she could lay claim to. She could not open her heart up to Laila, and later Aziza, because she could not afford anymore heartache. As time progresses, Mariam takes the lock off of her heart and begins to accept, even love, Laila and Aziza. She takes risks for them and tries to protect them. In the end, Mariam made the illegitimate sacrifice for them. Shortly before her death, Mariam thinks, “of her entry into this world… a regrettable accident. And yet she was leaving as a woman who had loved and been loved back. She was leaving as a friend, a companion, a guardian. A mother.” These were all things she never expected to become. Things that she was told she would never be. She figured out that she was worth something. She was needed. She was loved. Most of all, she did have a purpose.
Mariam’s past severely affected how she saw the world and reacted to situations later in life. She had always been someone that the world wrote off. However, she discovered that she was important and she mattered. This novel shows that one’s past does not dictate their future. Past hurts and disappointments can be forgotten and they can look forward to a bright future ahead.